Do you find despair in your life today?
Definition of Despair: The complete loss or absence of hope.
When my son, Preston was diagnosed with a tumor, we were not sure what type. All we knew it was positioned by the temple. Behind the orbit of his left eye and against the outer layer of the brain. So many thoughts and what ifs gushed through our minds. We were told about 4pm on November 6th, 2018. Due to tumor’s location, it was considered high risk, we had to be omitted to the hospital that night. The avalanche of emotions rumbled through our hearts and minds as we prepared for an unknown length of time at the hospital.
We had a choice to seek our King, the Lord of our lives, or try to do more ourselves. Thankfully we embraced His grace and surrendered all. It started by leaning on his promises, one was found in Psalms 103: 1-5:
1 Praise the Lord, my soul; all my inmost being, praise his holy name. 2 Praise the Lord, my soul, and forget not all his benefits— 3 who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases, 4 who redeems your life from the pit and crowns you with love and compassion, 5 who satisfies your desires with good things so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.
This was the attitude we chose to wrap our lives in. To do this we had to let others in. God did not intend for us to endure alone. He knew we needed others, He had blessed us with an incredible community that we had to lean on. As it says in James 5:13-16:
13 Is anyone among you in trouble? Let them pray. Is anyone happy? Let them sing songs of praise. 14 Is anyone among you sick? Let them call the elders of the church to pray over them and anoint them with oil in the name of the Lord. 15 And the prayer offered in faith will make the sick person well; the Lord will raise them up. If they have sinned, they will be forgiven. 16 Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective.
People showed up, they prayed and loved on us. If we had not allowed this, then Preston would not have seen the recovery he has. Our lives would have struggled, with fear and anxiety consuming us. We were determined not to allow despair define our life, accepted the amazing grace God was waiting to give.
Today, everything has changed. Not necessarily from the world’s perspective, but from ours. Preston is still in treatment, the tumor is smaller but not gone. We had a scare a couple weeks ago when Margo had something show up on her mammogram. It turned out to be nothing, just lymph nodes not a tumor – His grace. Financially, we literally do not know what tomorrow holds. Having to lean on all of God’s blessings and provisions. Despair should rule every part of our life, that is what the Devil wants us to believe. Yet, we hold to God’s truth from Paul in 2 Corinthians 4: 8-9
8 We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; 9 persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.
We are supposed to struggle in this life. But when we lean on our Heavenly Father we do not despair. In previous verses of 2 Corinthians 4, Paul talks about everything coming from our Lord, Jesus Christ. It is our decision if we accept God’s grace or not. Paul continues in 2 Corinthians 4: 16-18:
16 Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. 17 For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. 18 So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.
These verses encapsulate promises God gives us throughout the Bible. Despair; loss or absence of hope is not of God. It is easy to write and read these words then endure. If despair has a hold of you today, know this, you are not alone. But you have a choice, pray, accept God’s grace and invite others in. When you let the light in, darkness will scatter. It is a physical guarantee.
May you experience victory and joy in new ways!
Walking in His truth and grace,
I write this to make my joy complete!